I've been crying a lot over the last week. My bottom hurts and I just, well, feel like crying. A few times I've woken for a feed and Mum has been out with Oskar. Daddy's had to try to pacify me, but he's no substitute for warm milk. So I cry. And in the evening I just feel miserable and cry more. I've even ventured to try out the scream with the vibrato. That's very effective at getting Mum or Dad to pick me up. Two nights ago I think I screamed for about 3 hours. It wasn't good. Then the more they jiggled me around, the more my bottom hurt and the more I cried. I fell asleep after a late feed out of sheer exhaustion I think. Last night Dad put a dummy in my mouth. It was very nice to suck on and I fell asleep much more quickly.

I had an interesting experience yesterday. I was lying on my back having my nappy changed when I vomited. I watched this fountain of liquid rise upwards and then straight down again - into my eyes. It wasn't very nice actually but the clean up was worse since Mum wiped my face all over with a face washer and kept dabbing at my eyes. I'll try to turn my head next time.

I don't understand how Oskar feels about me. One moment he is stroking me and giving me cuddles. The next he is hitting me in the face or rolling on top of me under the guise of a big hug. But he is entertaining to watch and listen to when he's babbling on. Just as long as Mum or Dad keep a close eye on him when he's near me then all's well.